Here I am again

So I've now cleaned by whole house for almost 2 hours. Kinda sucks most of it was scrubbing the bathroom and throwing away old makeup that I no longer use. It was once again a blah day, work, school, home (no dance today, we're off Fridays WOOT WOOT). Yesterday I was sick, it was horrible but thankfully seemed to be the end of my sickness (whatever it was), because today I feel SO SO SO much better.

Shane's still at work. He's been distant lately. I think it's just a guy thing, Sarah says that when they're silent it means they think everything is okay. I wish he'd try more though, like to show me he cares and wants to spend time with me. Lately all I feel is that he's bored or irritated with me. People say I should just tell him, but I feel like I talk in circles and all our serious conversations are about the same thing. I can't change him, life doesn't work that way, but I wish he'd just pay more attention, have a good mix of how he was in high school and how he is now. Hmmm... I don't know what to do anymore. It's like I could think this forever and no matter how much talking I do it'll stay the same. I know it's horrible to say because I love him more than anyone or anything, but I'm starting to feel like we won't make it, like I or he will never be satisfied. I don't know how to fix it at all!!!!

Pretty Sweet

So I found this from a friend, pretty cool cuz I've been wanting to start one. Writing in a real journal just doesn't work for me, I'm not sure why. Today was blah, it's just repeating lately, it's like the same crap everyday. Work, school, practice. Except I didn't have practice today, which is definitely nice since I'm sick and the doctor doesn't know why. HOW ANNOYING!!!

Had a test today, which I'm confident went really well!!!! However, now it is time to study for all the biology homework I have :( sad day. Biology isn't too horrible though, not yet at least!!!